cranberries
05-28-2007, 06:47 AM
I realized I've fallen for my best friend. The catch is, I've never met him. about 3 1/2 years ago give or take I was contacted this guy. He was told about me by a shared aquantance. We talked for about a week online only. We never got the chance to meet, he moved back home after his mom got injured (really far away). But we continued to talk. we started talking over the phone. We became really good friends.
He had gotten a girlfriend less than 6 months ago and recently (I kinda noticed it when he had found a girl but I wasnt sure) I've realized I liked him. I ended up telling him one night. He told me he has liked me for a very long time, even said that he honestly believes Im his soul mate. But he has a girlfriend whom he cares for.
After much thinking and talking about it. We decided to meet at upcoming festival about halfway between our two homes. It's a 4 day event, but we decided to hang out for an extra day before it. and we are sharing a hotel room...
This is where things become weird. He's in the process of breaking up with his girlfriend (whatever that means). And we're gonna fly to meet eachtother and stay in the same hotel room for 4 nights... I havent really gotten a good look at him (kinda but crappy pictures dont do justice) lol when I first saw his picture when we first started talking he looked sooooo ugly, and the pics from there he looked better after changing his style (I'm afaird Im not going to find him attractive). Oh yeah and I forgot to mention Im a terrible person when it come to being in an actual relationship. I can dish out pretty good advice but i never listen to myself -_-. I rush into things... get talked into things (bad bad news in my last relationship). But he does know all about those little details.
I'm starting to worry. What if I meet him, and I dont really like him? (I'm the kind of person who changes their mind alot) Is it too quick to jump into a little get away together? haha it just seems like I'm gonna be in an awkward situation if that happens (I'd feel much more comfortable if we had seperate rooms, but the only way I could afford it, is by spliting). I talked to him about this, and he's pretty confident we'll get along fine :rolleyes:. I guess it's the only thing to do since we're so far away. I'm not sure about long distance relationships either. I'm also worried about his gf. I guess I dont want to do anything that would jepordize our friendship we have now. Is it worth the risk?
I dont know, I may be thinking way to much about things. Any advice or thoughts on the matter, even some kind words (haha) would be apprieciated.
He had gotten a girlfriend less than 6 months ago and recently (I kinda noticed it when he had found a girl but I wasnt sure) I've realized I liked him. I ended up telling him one night. He told me he has liked me for a very long time, even said that he honestly believes Im his soul mate. But he has a girlfriend whom he cares for.
After much thinking and talking about it. We decided to meet at upcoming festival about halfway between our two homes. It's a 4 day event, but we decided to hang out for an extra day before it. and we are sharing a hotel room...
This is where things become weird. He's in the process of breaking up with his girlfriend (whatever that means). And we're gonna fly to meet eachtother and stay in the same hotel room for 4 nights... I havent really gotten a good look at him (kinda but crappy pictures dont do justice) lol when I first saw his picture when we first started talking he looked sooooo ugly, and the pics from there he looked better after changing his style (I'm afaird Im not going to find him attractive). Oh yeah and I forgot to mention Im a terrible person when it come to being in an actual relationship. I can dish out pretty good advice but i never listen to myself -_-. I rush into things... get talked into things (bad bad news in my last relationship). But he does know all about those little details.
I'm starting to worry. What if I meet him, and I dont really like him? (I'm the kind of person who changes their mind alot) Is it too quick to jump into a little get away together? haha it just seems like I'm gonna be in an awkward situation if that happens (I'd feel much more comfortable if we had seperate rooms, but the only way I could afford it, is by spliting). I talked to him about this, and he's pretty confident we'll get along fine :rolleyes:. I guess it's the only thing to do since we're so far away. I'm not sure about long distance relationships either. I'm also worried about his gf. I guess I dont want to do anything that would jepordize our friendship we have now. Is it worth the risk?
I dont know, I may be thinking way to much about things. Any advice or thoughts on the matter, even some kind words (haha) would be apprieciated.