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adamrushe
05-29-2007, 07:41 PM
my life was empty, no emotion, no fear, no care for anyone. she came into my life like an everyday thing. At first she would pester and annoy me. I hated her. she made life so annoying. constantly calling. she put me on a pedestal and made me center of her life. we argued, we fought, but she loved me more than anything.

i didnt care, i cheated, i treated her like ****. Slowly as time went on, i started to like her. i began to like her like never before. she became my life. i thought of her day and night. I started to love her more than anything.

but this wasnt right, i cant love her. its not the way its meant to be. my life is different, i am different. we are of different paths, we cant be together forever..

my heart tells me one thing my head tells me another. so she leaves.. leaves me to be. we decide on a stone not to communicate ever again.

my life is now empty again. she thinks i dont love her but she means the world to me. i sit there late at night, looking at her beautiful picture, just wishing i could touch her, hold her, be with her... but thats not how life was meant to be.

i went on a date with someone else and realised how special and unique she really is. she is like light to the darkness. i love her smile, her laughter, her angryness, her sorrowness, her stupidity, her confidence i love everything about her, but thats not how life was meant to be.

she thinks im cold, im dry, but im not. i know she will never read this, and i wouldnt ever want her to read this. but i wish her the most happiest, healthiest, wealthiest life and hope she finds someone that cares for her. i cant live without her now, i sit her thinking of her day and night, but ill have to learn to live a life without her.

i wish things were differnt.

Penguin_Woman
05-29-2007, 08:10 PM
Well, firstoff welcome to ATLF. Secondly...I can see you do truly love her. So why do you feel you can't be with her?

~Teej~
05-29-2007, 08:35 PM
Well, firstoff welcome to ATLF. Secondly...I can see you do truly love her. So why do you feel you can't be with her?

I agree with Tuxette..We need to know why you feel you can't have her ?

Do you think that you aren't good enough for her ?

Do you think she will be better of without you ?

Please share with us :grouphug:

aussiecoffee007
05-30-2007, 03:38 AM
same, i think that if you want her you should do anything in your power to get her back... tell HER this too... so she knows hwo you feel :)

zoie05
07-10-2007, 01:59 PM
Everyone deserves to be happy and to be loved. Why would you say such things.