I'm back and i get over it.....

[pika]

Took me the whole of last week to figure out what went wrong with my life and how i should get on with my life....

finally i am able to face her as a normal friend......

One of the factor that i thought about was what is it that i wanted?

If i were to carry on in my present state, the suffering party will still be me. I will still be the party who hurt the most without them noticing.

And i should learn to let go......finally i stand in the view point of his boyfriend and i think i should just let go, let them have their life and me have mine.....

although decided, i wasnt sure if i will do it, so i spend another week to be the normal me...and yes it was difficult at the beginning, but now after a week, i was able to pick up her call normally, answer her call, talk to her and even lunch with her as a normal friend...not harbouring any thoughts of being together with her nor being over close with her. Or even when hearing sweet talks between her and her boyfriend felt so sad.

In the past i get too submissive and any request from her i would just do it..even waiting for her to take the train together. Now i am able to just live my own way, my own life the way i wanted it to be....

I am glad i got out of it. And i know i will rebuild my confident again to meet and know new girls.....yeah..but this time round i am going to make sure i know if they are attached or not before i put some feelings in

[summit]

thats great to hear pika, I think you knew all along what you had to do, its just a hard thing to follow up with when feelings are involved, im glad to hear your through the worst part, you deserve someone who will love you back in return, just remeber what you have learned from this, and stick to it, and your experience will not be for nothing. :)

[pika]

thats great to hear pika, I think you knew all along what you had to do, its just a hard thing to follow up with when feelings are involved, im glad to hear your through the worst part, you deserve someone who will love you back in return, just remeber what you have learned from this, and stick to it, and your experience will not be for nothing. :)

Hi Summit yes, actually i should not have rushed things in the 1st place. These few days of knowing her more, i discover she is not really suitable for me. Her life style, her character and her personality. I don think i deserve her and i really dont think even if one day i am with her what i will do.
She smoke, she club, she has numerous messages from all different people. So many friends she has to attend to every minute. Her life was simply the adverse of me. I would feel so insecure as her boyfriend if i were.

And i am glad i didnt spoil her current relationship, cause maybe her this boyfriend suits her much better...