I miss her :(

[Indestructible]

Before I get into this, let me just say, I know there's really nothing to be done, I just... really feel the need to vent right now. Here's the background info; I've had feelings for a certain girl for many many years, going all the way back to when we met as kids. It had been a few years since I had had any contact with her, though; well, that is, until just over a year ago. By dumb luck, I stumbled onto her MySpace, and I decided to write to her. She seemed to enjoy writing to me, for a while, and I could tell my feelings were bubbling back up.

Unfortunately, my messages to her started getting a bit... "clingy", I guess would be the term. :/ I didn't really mean for that to happen... Anyway, when things started going downhill, I quickly pulled the trigger and asked her about meeting up, in a casual way, to catch up, etc., and she never replied. I stopped writing to her for months after that, and of course, didn't hear anything from her. I finally wrote her a little message just trying to get back into the loop, and she seemed to be willing to write to me again, but then she started backing way off again. So, about a month ago, I decided to seek an end to a means, and I wrote her a "final" message; I acknowledged that when we were kids, I had feelings for her, and I said that I couldn't help but be curious to see if there would still be anything there today. I told her I knew I had acted weird on MySpace a lot, but that I'm just not good with this "online" stuff. I peppered in some humor to try to keep it upbeat, and I basically ended it by asking one more time if her and I could meet up in person some time. And again, no answer.

So that should be the end of it. And believe it or not, ever since, I think I've taken it pretty well. Somehow, I've been managing to push it out of my mind, for the time being, but for the last two weeks, thoughts of her just keep getting into my head. For some reason, she's on my mind a lot, all of a sudden. This past weekend, it been hit me real hard, for some reason; she keeps popping into my mind, and I just really miss getting to write with her online, and whatnot. At least it was something, yanno? So, I dunno what I really hoped to accomplish with this topic... Like I said, I'm aware that there's nothing more to be done, with this girl; maybe I just needed to vent? I don't know... @_@

[**Sapphire**]

Hopefully you feel better venting it to us here, we are all here to read. :)

You had feelings for her for a long time so it's understandable that at times you will remember her. Maybe certain things will trigger a memory as well. The thing to do is not let it really get you down, when you feel yourself getting really down, go do something to help take your mind off of it.

[Indestructible]

It's getting tougher on me now, especially, because I know she's very likely coming home for the summer, which, if things hadn't already fallen so far, would've put me in a good position to get together with her on a regular basis. Part of me really wishes that maybe we'll run into each other over the summer (er, not in a stalkery "I'm going to figure out exactly where she always goes, then follow her around and purposely 'accidentally' run into her" kind of way), despite never having done so in the past; but on the other hand, I keep thinking, if we DID run into each other, what the heck would I even say to her? Yanno, especially after my last few messages to her? I dunno, I just wish I could have one more chance... :/

[**Sapphire**]

Well Indestructible, if you do happen to run in to her, the best thing to do is just be very general when you talk to her. Start out with "Hi, how have you been"? See how she reacts, like if she responds to you & then take things from there.

Try to keep yourself busy though when she comes back home for summer. Hang out with your friends & do stuff, things that will take your mind off of her & wondering where she is since she's closer now.