Chris N
04-12-2007, 04:41 PM
Here's the story.
A little over a month ago, I met a girl called Jess. I'd seen pictures of her before, because she was friends with some of my friends and so I half knew who she was. I had even spoken to her before, on msn, because she was round her best mate's house.
Anyway, as soon as I met her I liked her. I thought *wow this girl is really nice*, even though I only spoke to her a couple of times.
A week or so later, a group of us went back to someone's house, who I hardly knew at the time. I had just been invited along because of my good mate =].
The girl I had met before had a little alcohol and so did I, and I spent a lot of time with her. All we really did was hug, and talk a bit. I thought she liked me, and so did my mates who were there.
After that day I started liking her A LOT. I spoke to her every day on msn, thought about her frequently and was generally happy because I thought something could happen.
A few weeks later I found out, at another smally "party" like the one before that she 'didn't like me in that way'. She spent a long time comforting me and apologising to me. We even kissed a bit (apparantly she was giving me something 'to remember her by').
After that I felt a bit depressed, and started liking another girl a bit (Josie), but not as much as I liked Jess. Jess went away for a week or so and I didn't speak to her during that period. I thought I was over her, and I was thinking more and more about Josie.
When Jess came back, I was really happy and loved speaking to her again. We had another small "party" and when I saw Jess again all the feelings came back. I ended up crying at the party because I was so depressed (people didn't know why - they all thought I was over Jess). I completely forgot about Josie after this.
I spoke to Jess a lot the next few days, we were back to how we had been talking before, except she didn't know I liked her, so it seemed a lot easier to talk to her.
One night I was talking to her and she said she could tell that I was depressed. I was. She kept going on at me and telling me that if I didn't tell her what was wrong, that she would be sad too. I really didn't want to tell her. She had grown on me even more and from that moment I think I knew I was in love with her.
In the end she made me tell her (over msn). I told her that I still 'liked' her (I didn't tell her quite how much), and as soon as I had said everything I didn't give her a chance to reply, I just logged off. I was crying. I really didn't want to have to tell her because I knew she would feel bad for not liking me back.
I logged back on about an hour later. The conversation was a bit awkward and I didn't really want to talk much. I kept apologising and she was being really nice and making jokes saying things like "I don't see what you see in me, really! =]" and things like that. We talked for a few hours more.
She said during that conversation "looooooooook i'm not saying i wont ever like you in that way..just idunno how i feel atm"
I thought she was just saying that to make me feel better, but apparantly she wasn't "mm, well you either believe me or dont...but i only talk the truth:P"
The conversation ended with her saying "DONT BE SORRY DUPID:), it actually brought a smile on me face". Which made me feel a bit better.
But the thing is, I've seen her since then and she has showed no signs of liking me back (which I didn't expect), but it hurts. I love her so much and I can't stop thinking about her. Her hugs feel like the best thing in the world, and it makes me want to never let go...
So... yeh there's a bit of a long story.
Just wanted to know what you think? Because I want to get over her (in ways), but I don't see how it's possible when I like her so so so much, and I see her so often (I'm really good friends with her best friends now too). Also, I fear that if I did get over her and she started liking me it would mess everything up even further. I'd hate that.
Should I wait and see if she DOES start to like me? Or try to get over her? Thanks.
A little over a month ago, I met a girl called Jess. I'd seen pictures of her before, because she was friends with some of my friends and so I half knew who she was. I had even spoken to her before, on msn, because she was round her best mate's house.
Anyway, as soon as I met her I liked her. I thought *wow this girl is really nice*, even though I only spoke to her a couple of times.
A week or so later, a group of us went back to someone's house, who I hardly knew at the time. I had just been invited along because of my good mate =].
The girl I had met before had a little alcohol and so did I, and I spent a lot of time with her. All we really did was hug, and talk a bit. I thought she liked me, and so did my mates who were there.
After that day I started liking her A LOT. I spoke to her every day on msn, thought about her frequently and was generally happy because I thought something could happen.
A few weeks later I found out, at another smally "party" like the one before that she 'didn't like me in that way'. She spent a long time comforting me and apologising to me. We even kissed a bit (apparantly she was giving me something 'to remember her by').
After that I felt a bit depressed, and started liking another girl a bit (Josie), but not as much as I liked Jess. Jess went away for a week or so and I didn't speak to her during that period. I thought I was over her, and I was thinking more and more about Josie.
When Jess came back, I was really happy and loved speaking to her again. We had another small "party" and when I saw Jess again all the feelings came back. I ended up crying at the party because I was so depressed (people didn't know why - they all thought I was over Jess). I completely forgot about Josie after this.
I spoke to Jess a lot the next few days, we were back to how we had been talking before, except she didn't know I liked her, so it seemed a lot easier to talk to her.
One night I was talking to her and she said she could tell that I was depressed. I was. She kept going on at me and telling me that if I didn't tell her what was wrong, that she would be sad too. I really didn't want to tell her. She had grown on me even more and from that moment I think I knew I was in love with her.
In the end she made me tell her (over msn). I told her that I still 'liked' her (I didn't tell her quite how much), and as soon as I had said everything I didn't give her a chance to reply, I just logged off. I was crying. I really didn't want to have to tell her because I knew she would feel bad for not liking me back.
I logged back on about an hour later. The conversation was a bit awkward and I didn't really want to talk much. I kept apologising and she was being really nice and making jokes saying things like "I don't see what you see in me, really! =]" and things like that. We talked for a few hours more.
She said during that conversation "looooooooook i'm not saying i wont ever like you in that way..just idunno how i feel atm"
I thought she was just saying that to make me feel better, but apparantly she wasn't "mm, well you either believe me or dont...but i only talk the truth:P"
The conversation ended with her saying "DONT BE SORRY DUPID:), it actually brought a smile on me face". Which made me feel a bit better.
But the thing is, I've seen her since then and she has showed no signs of liking me back (which I didn't expect), but it hurts. I love her so much and I can't stop thinking about her. Her hugs feel like the best thing in the world, and it makes me want to never let go...
So... yeh there's a bit of a long story.
Just wanted to know what you think? Because I want to get over her (in ways), but I don't see how it's possible when I like her so so so much, and I see her so often (I'm really good friends with her best friends now too). Also, I fear that if I did get over her and she started liking me it would mess everything up even further. I'd hate that.
Should I wait and see if she DOES start to like me? Or try to get over her? Thanks.