kaydee
01-07-2007, 02:58 PM
So my ex is finally moving on...sort of...
He and I were so close, and he always told me that we were gonna be together forever, and that he really wanted to marry me. However, after things got rocky, he didn't want anything to do with me.
We're friends now, and that's been really nice. I think, however, that it's been giving me false hope because he and I have broken up several times before now and we've always gotten back together after being "just friends" for a while. He is incapable of being friends with me without falling in love with me again. Which I always took as a sign that we were supposed to be together.
However, this time, we weren't best friends. He avoided me and didn't treat me nicely, and I think it was because he knew he was gonna fall in love with me again. Recently, he started being alot nicer to me, and i thought that it was only gonna be a matter of short time before I had him back.
YEsterday I saw him flirting with one of my friends. He was treating her the same way that he used to treat me, with this big stupid smile on his face. I was bothered by it, so I went to talk to some other friends. Unfortunately, this created some drama. I was at a party when I saw him talking to her, and everyone at the party thought that I was trying to sabatoge their relationship. I wasn't though. I was just remembering what it felt like to be in her shoes.
He told me that he never even loved me and that nothing that happened between us meant anything, and i was beside myself. i left the party, though I had no car, and just walked around for about an hour. I returned because I had left my cell on a table, and he came to talk to me. He said we had some good times, and that he definately loved me alot, but that this whole situation with him and me needed to go away.
Later I talked to my friend (the one he was flirting with). She said that he had said he wanted to date her, but wasn't sure about it because of me. He knew there was still something between us, but it was just too stressful and he thinks he just needs to move on.
So I called him, and i told him that, no matter what happened, i was always gonna love him. And we can go ahead and see other people. That's fine. But I will always be there for him, we will continue to call eachother, and I will continue to be his best friend. He agreed.
So he is more than likely going to date my friend, which is okay with me. I know they won't get married because she is moving to Utah in 1 year, and she can't marry him because of their religious differences. I also know that, when he falls for a girl, he falls hard, and the best way to get him back into my life is to just be his best friend. If she breaks his heart, I will be there with a DVD and a carton of our favorite icecream.
I also have to move on and see other people. I feel that, although I still really love him, we both just need a distraction from eachother right now.
Plus, she makes him happy. And I love him so much, I just want him to be happy.
With all of our history, the fact that we're going to be best friends during his new relationship, and the fact that I'm prepared to help him pick up the peices when it's all over, do you think I still have a chance to be with him?
They say when you meet the person you're supposed to be with, you just know it. And i know it about him. The way I see it, I just need to let him distract himself for a while. But when he's done, he'll come back. He always has.
Now comes the waiting game.
He and I were so close, and he always told me that we were gonna be together forever, and that he really wanted to marry me. However, after things got rocky, he didn't want anything to do with me.
We're friends now, and that's been really nice. I think, however, that it's been giving me false hope because he and I have broken up several times before now and we've always gotten back together after being "just friends" for a while. He is incapable of being friends with me without falling in love with me again. Which I always took as a sign that we were supposed to be together.
However, this time, we weren't best friends. He avoided me and didn't treat me nicely, and I think it was because he knew he was gonna fall in love with me again. Recently, he started being alot nicer to me, and i thought that it was only gonna be a matter of short time before I had him back.
YEsterday I saw him flirting with one of my friends. He was treating her the same way that he used to treat me, with this big stupid smile on his face. I was bothered by it, so I went to talk to some other friends. Unfortunately, this created some drama. I was at a party when I saw him talking to her, and everyone at the party thought that I was trying to sabatoge their relationship. I wasn't though. I was just remembering what it felt like to be in her shoes.
He told me that he never even loved me and that nothing that happened between us meant anything, and i was beside myself. i left the party, though I had no car, and just walked around for about an hour. I returned because I had left my cell on a table, and he came to talk to me. He said we had some good times, and that he definately loved me alot, but that this whole situation with him and me needed to go away.
Later I talked to my friend (the one he was flirting with). She said that he had said he wanted to date her, but wasn't sure about it because of me. He knew there was still something between us, but it was just too stressful and he thinks he just needs to move on.
So I called him, and i told him that, no matter what happened, i was always gonna love him. And we can go ahead and see other people. That's fine. But I will always be there for him, we will continue to call eachother, and I will continue to be his best friend. He agreed.
So he is more than likely going to date my friend, which is okay with me. I know they won't get married because she is moving to Utah in 1 year, and she can't marry him because of their religious differences. I also know that, when he falls for a girl, he falls hard, and the best way to get him back into my life is to just be his best friend. If she breaks his heart, I will be there with a DVD and a carton of our favorite icecream.
I also have to move on and see other people. I feel that, although I still really love him, we both just need a distraction from eachother right now.
Plus, she makes him happy. And I love him so much, I just want him to be happy.
With all of our history, the fact that we're going to be best friends during his new relationship, and the fact that I'm prepared to help him pick up the peices when it's all over, do you think I still have a chance to be with him?
They say when you meet the person you're supposed to be with, you just know it. And i know it about him. The way I see it, I just need to let him distract himself for a while. But when he's done, he'll come back. He always has.
Now comes the waiting game.